A Crying Heart

As restless i can be...
never before i feel this much of restless...
as worried as i can be...
never before i experience this much of worried...
I am speechless...
with my widened eyes filled with crystal tears...
not obvious but still i am crying...
You...
Please...
Please say that everything...EVERYTHING is just a joke...
A silly joke that you created just to make me feel this way...
I can take it as a joke...
I can absolutely take it even if you are trying to fool me...
I don't care...I don't really care if you say "It's just a joke"...
and end up with "I'm sorry"...
But I do care when...
When someone tells me that you've 'been taken away'...
And end up with "Sorry"
I care...
I do care...
Similar with you,
I also hope for us to meet during winter...
And i am sorry i couldn't make it...
But i believe that 'next time' will come...
And it really upset me when...
the 'next time' does not turn out to be like what i hope for...
I'm crying...
But I'm not showing...
Because the sound of sniffing-tears can only be heard if you could see...
A crying 'heart'...