Why?

There’s a thing called ‘fate’. Destiny.
We don’t know where we might end up in life, so learn to appreciate and love the things that you own, you’re experiencing, whatever occurrence that is happening around you.

Have you ever thought of asking why things happen?
Why am I being born this way? Why named me …….? Why am I being born in this family? Why I have you as my sister, my brother? Why I met you as a friend? Why am I at this place? Why am I at this college? Why set me up in different environment then shift me to another totally different environment?

I do ask myself a lot of these things. It might sound silly but it gives a whole lot of an impact towards my belief and my life. You want to know why? Want to know the answers?

It was because of God.
He wants you to be born as what you are. He is the one who gives name to people, gave it to you. He was the one that wanted you to be born in your current family. He gave you your brothers and sisters. He wanted you to meet with your friends that you never thought you would be able to know. He sets you up to be at where you currently are. He wanted you to be in that college. He moved you from one environment to the other,
but… WHY???
Because He knows what’s best for you.

So, anonymous readers, there are no reasons for you to hate/ not appreciate what you have now. Fine we appreciate what we have before, example: we love our old friends, school friends because we grew up with them, they’re like our siblings they know us deep down and they never let us down because we’ve known them throughout our lives! Siapa tak sayang kawan kan? Especially yang kita kenal dari kecik. Dari tadika. Dah nak masuk 20 tahun (yes, You, you know who you are *smiles*). But that doesn’t mean that you should not put trust on your new friends. I was paranoid before, afraid that I might not be able to cope up with my new friends in college. What if I can’t get along with them? What if I can’t find a group that I can mingle around with? What if I can’t find someone yang I can share my problems with? Takkan I have to keep on updating my everyday life in college kat kawan2 lama yang semestinya dah lain path kitaorang. I just need someone that I can talk to in college but who? Can I find one?
I asked for one.
One.
Just One.
But…
He gives me…*counts*…1.2.3…7 8…*oh forget it it’ll be towards infinity*.
You see anonymous readers, say, God has destined you to be in this one particular college. A college that you’ve never thought of its existence, or if you did then it was a college that was meant for rich kids, genius kids, kids with bright futures.
When you were young, you often pass through iklan billboard of this college kat highway and the only thing that came across your mind would be: I’m going to become a teacher! I don’t need this college, (although I really want to know how does it feel like to be in this college…looks nice and all)…you keep that kata hati yang kecik tu to yourself, orang tak tahu pun. Apa yang orang dengar cuma part ego kita mengatakan: I’m going to become a teacher! I don’t need this college. But do you realize somebody else heard your hati kecil tu?

It’s Him. He hears it. And He knows what you really feel. So He sets your path kearah making you able to enroll in that college. He gave you good results in your SPM, He gave you scholarships opportunities, tak bagi dapat this one scholarship (sebab nanti akan end up kat kolej lain) but bagi rezeki untuk dapat diterima oleh ‘this’ one sponsor yang akhirnya membuatkan kita berada di kolej ‘ini.
Why?

Then…kita jumpa kawan-kawan baru. You meet with A B C D E….. why?
Sometimes I ask myself, why do I have to meet with A? when he brings no benefit to me pun. Just a friend. Why am I being destined to have chaletmates yang macam totally different than me? Takda persamaan pun antara kitaorang. Why am I being destined to be in this class of people when people from d other class Nampak macam lagi happening! And macam boleh ngam gila2 lah with me. Why? And then why do I have to meet with guy Z yang gila annoying and stubborn and buat sakit hati je kalau korek2 lagi info pasal dia but I end up knowing him more than I should have. Why do I feel the need to correct him if he does anything that I think is wrong when he would never listen? Why do I have to meet with guy R and have a huge major big crush on him but still why God forbids me from expressing what I feel to guy R? plus I do have a crush back home (long-term) but still why am I destined to meet with guy R pun?
Why all of these people appear in my life?

There are reasons for all these. We can just analyze and interpret and get the best the most positive perspective out of it, but we never know what will happen next. Now, I do realize, God sets me up and placed me in KY, allowing me to meet with different people with different perangai, yang totally different dengan kawan2 sekolah and kawan2 kat housing area ni (YOU GUYS KNOW WHO YOU ARE! BUT I DO LOVE YOU GUYSSS! ) because He wants me to SEE and LEARN. I have more reasons but let it just be between me and Him. =)

My conclusion here is… don’t “hate” what you have now. Okay maybe ‘hate’ is a harsh word and you taklah benci gila-gila kat your current surroundings ni pun kan. I know there’s a ‘likeeee’ towards your current friends and all, deep down within you somewhere tu. Maybe the best I can say is that; don’t complain. Yes. Don’t complain this people is this this people is that this people doesn’t suit me like how my old friends do, this group of friends don’t really care about me like how my other friends do, this place doesn’t suit me, socially speaking.

Well…just don’t ! anonymous readers, you may ask your friends : hey do you care for me gila-gila that I can trust you gila-gila and we could be best mates forever? Huh huh?
Well the fact is, you will NEVER get the answer that you want.
People express more strongly by DOING things, NOT words. It’s true.
Girls go ga-ga when a guy opens the door for her.
A mother feels lembut hati seeing her son does what she says
A father feels glad seeing his daughter is able to cook and do house chores
A cat gets all giddy when its Tuan rubs its tummy
A student needs to be able to move his hands first (an action) before he could write an econs essay

Actions come first, words later. T.R.U.S.T me.
When something happens to you, insyaAllah we’ll be there to help. God knows best, remember? He doesn’t just allow you to meet with these ‘new friends’ of yours for nothing. We all have our roles kat bumi ni. Then sebab tu lah manusia ni ialah Khalifah di Bumi Allah.
You have your own role and I have mine.
That is why we are different in the first place. Because our roles are different too.
But one thing we could take it as something in common is that all of us have the ‘role’ to help each other.
Tegur me if I do anything wrong. Tegur me if I went over the limit. Tegur me if I sakitkan hati or buat siapa2 terasa hati. Tegur me for my perangai. Tegur me for… anything. Because I do think your teguran will make me to be a better person.

Well, if you can’t see where my point is in this loooong ramblings…atleast take the part yang you think is good for you, I don’t know if I am much of a help, but I’ve tried.And if something happens to me bila-bila pun, atleast I’ve let it all out and atleast I know (I hope) you’ve read this. After all, this is MY perspective towards life. MY life. And hope we can share what’s good with the rest of our friends.


Ps: you’re a good friend DUDE. And I’m sorry jugak sebab asyik2 marah.( Nabi tak bagi kita marah2..sepatutnya I should sabar je) But sometimes I can’t take it and think that I should defend what’s right for me, on my behalf. Plus, if you think I am only filling your life with dramas and touching-ness and annoyingness and demandingness,sarcasm-ness,girly-girl-ness,gedikgedikness, I’m sorry for that too. I have the tendency to treat you as my ‘best girlfriend’ and I dunno why. Heh. Sorry. I’ll treat you with more respect after this. As a guy. So there should be a limit somewhere… at the border line.

Pps: No one knows who you are, DUDE…so no worries. *peace.

Comments

shknhssn. said…
Awakk..awak masuk ky,awak kenal saya. and whats the problem dude? come come, tell me. :)

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