Late Night Rambling
WHAT A WEEKEND!!!
kalau minggu-minggu lepas, i always felt so depressed and a bit 'lonely' mcm x tau nak buat apa dekat rumah x da kerja (walaupun banyak gila kerja yg boleh buat cam..baca buku ke journals ke kan....), asyik makan duk depan laptop tgok2 video2 youtube and stuff...tgok2 facebook yang sgt bosan tu...
well...i guess that was why i felt a bit depressed. because i was doing the same thing over and over again. lepas tu suka compare life dgn orang lain...
tanya org ni weekend dia buat apa...kenapa weekend awak best sgt? saya punya weekend boring~~~ dah la weekdays habiskan masa dgn kerja2 yg SGT INTENSIF and HARDCORE lah homework2 second year ni, tapi weekend saya still x da beza...terlebih rehat x best terkurang rehat pun tak best... compare compare compare lepas tu complain complain complain.... Im... you're an idiot...for doing that... hah!
so! Baru sedar yang sebenarnye Tuhan bagi banyak cara untuk saya 'have fun'...
see... i received A LOT of invitations...pergi rumah ni ada jamuan sikit..pergi event ni event tu...ye lah kan banyak kan... tapi yang menjadi 'dalang'nya saya sendiri... I WAS the one yang tolak those invitations...I WAS THE ONE yang refused to go to this and that events... everything was because of me, because i was the one whom chose what to do and what not to do but i ended up choosing things wrongly!!!
hence, the depression that neared to getting explode!
However... THIS WEEK! I CHOSE to be happy!!!
mmg mula2 mcm malassss nak kluar, nak change the plan and stuff... tapi last2 tu...saya PAKSA diri jugak and keluar rumah! GO! GET INVOLVE! do this! do that! do everything!
hari jumaat i slept at around 3am semata2 nak habiskan assignment yang due Monday! (esok)
then sabtu...i kicked start my day by going to Yuka's house, and she cooked me an udon dish. I requested it. the best part about the whole lunch session was that she was very particular in serving the dish by making sure it does not contain any alcohols and stuff that i couldn't eat! yeah! basically the dish was 110% halal! insyaAllah! yay!!! ^^ now i have a private and personal Japanese chef whom can cook any japanese meal for me!
haha! and then sebagai pembalasan... saya bake for Yuka! i intended to bake red velvet cupcakes...but it ended up being just chocolate cupcakes! haha! well... okay lah tu jadilah jugak cupcakes kan... lepas tu icing dah la mcm scrambled egg! hahaha!!! really the icing was abit weird...maybe i didnt exactly follow the recipe and replaced a few ingredients with other "similar" things... (at least what I THOUGHT to be similar~) hahaha
then..malam tu gi visit Hani! a junior from KY! :) rasanya tak pernah kenl masa kat KY tapi jumpa kat sini ngam terus! ^^ haha!
and then together Hani and I went to Hanizs house...she hosted a..small..mini KY gathering.... tapi ada Yusran :p (well FYI...Yusran is a friend but he's not from KY.)
okay..perlu ke sebut nama semua orang kan? who cares... this is MY BLOG so bear with me...at least for a while...
...we partied hard! haha! okay no we didn't ...we ate a lot though cuz the food was pretty good :)
okay! long story short, esoknye (today, Sunday) gi house warming rumah Tericaa pulak... fuh! another feast! but the foods were AH-MAZINGLY DEHLUCIOUSO!
makan je kan...tak pelah dah workout 3 hari straight g gym during weekdays kot...kena give my body a treat la kan... haish...
so!
main point untuk post kali ini ialah...
you are the one who's in charge of your own life. Yes God has planned it all but He gives you choices and you still have to decide. Your decisions are crucial...cuz those are the things that will shape you to be a human! and it shapes your future...in this world and even in the world here-after.
If you believe God has planned a straight path for you in this world that, somehow, no matter how hard and how much you decide upon every choices in life you still end up following God's plan... i guess that's not correct.
i do believe each and every second in our life...there are a lot of branches of choices...each second in life you'll have to decide what to do... either to breathe fast or breathe slow, either to blink your eyes NOW or wait a few more seconds to blink...either to go and eat something or continue reading this crappy blog post...see? that much of decisions in life...always there..can't deny can't run away from it... and these are all choices that God gives us... He wants us to be a thinker! what benefits will u get out of every decisions you will, you have made.
okay, my MAIN MAIN MAAIIINNN POINT issss to say thaaaat....
choose the best decisions that you know will bring benefits to you...
previously, i chose to stay at home rather than going out to experience some 'healthy' socialising session with friends...
and it didn't work... i chose to stay at home because i was lazy to go out...and i ended up being too depressed because i felt so lonely and had no company in life... (that's a bit of an exaggeration of how i felt..but that's partly true)
tapi this week i chose to go out and berukhhhwaaahh dengan kawan2 and i feel great! and yes! i'm happy! so when you're happy, you can study well, do things well and most importantly you'll do things secara IKHLAS when you're happy :)
so!!! choose choose and keep on choosing! decide decide and keep on deciding! every decisions matters! every decisions counts!!!!!!!
whatever i'm talking about~
xxx Im xxx
kalau minggu-minggu lepas, i always felt so depressed and a bit 'lonely' mcm x tau nak buat apa dekat rumah x da kerja (walaupun banyak gila kerja yg boleh buat cam..baca buku ke journals ke kan....), asyik makan duk depan laptop tgok2 video2 youtube and stuff...tgok2 facebook yang sgt bosan tu...
well...i guess that was why i felt a bit depressed. because i was doing the same thing over and over again. lepas tu suka compare life dgn orang lain...
tanya org ni weekend dia buat apa...kenapa weekend awak best sgt? saya punya weekend boring~~~ dah la weekdays habiskan masa dgn kerja2 yg SGT INTENSIF and HARDCORE lah homework2 second year ni, tapi weekend saya still x da beza...terlebih rehat x best terkurang rehat pun tak best... compare compare compare lepas tu complain complain complain.... Im... you're an idiot...for doing that... hah!
so! Baru sedar yang sebenarnye Tuhan bagi banyak cara untuk saya 'have fun'...
see... i received A LOT of invitations...pergi rumah ni ada jamuan sikit..pergi event ni event tu...ye lah kan banyak kan... tapi yang menjadi 'dalang'nya saya sendiri... I WAS the one yang tolak those invitations...I WAS THE ONE yang refused to go to this and that events... everything was because of me, because i was the one whom chose what to do and what not to do but i ended up choosing things wrongly!!!
hence, the depression that neared to getting explode!
However... THIS WEEK! I CHOSE to be happy!!!
mmg mula2 mcm malassss nak kluar, nak change the plan and stuff... tapi last2 tu...saya PAKSA diri jugak and keluar rumah! GO! GET INVOLVE! do this! do that! do everything!
hari jumaat i slept at around 3am semata2 nak habiskan assignment yang due Monday! (esok)
then sabtu...i kicked start my day by going to Yuka's house, and she cooked me an udon dish. I requested it. the best part about the whole lunch session was that she was very particular in serving the dish by making sure it does not contain any alcohols and stuff that i couldn't eat! yeah! basically the dish was 110% halal! insyaAllah! yay!!! ^^ now i have a private and personal Japanese chef whom can cook any japanese meal for me!
haha! and then sebagai pembalasan... saya bake for Yuka! i intended to bake red velvet cupcakes...but it ended up being just chocolate cupcakes! haha! well... okay lah tu jadilah jugak cupcakes kan... lepas tu icing dah la mcm scrambled egg! hahaha!!! really the icing was abit weird...maybe i didnt exactly follow the recipe and replaced a few ingredients with other "similar" things... (at least what I THOUGHT to be similar~) hahaha
then..malam tu gi visit Hani! a junior from KY! :) rasanya tak pernah kenl masa kat KY tapi jumpa kat sini ngam terus! ^^ haha!
and then together Hani and I went to Hanizs house...she hosted a..small..mini KY gathering.... tapi ada Yusran :p (well FYI...Yusran is a friend but he's not from KY.)
okay..perlu ke sebut nama semua orang kan? who cares... this is MY BLOG so bear with me...at least for a while...
...we partied hard! haha! okay no we didn't ...we ate a lot though cuz the food was pretty good :)
okay! long story short, esoknye (today, Sunday) gi house warming rumah Tericaa pulak... fuh! another feast! but the foods were AH-MAZINGLY DEHLUCIOUSO!
makan je kan...tak pelah dah workout 3 hari straight g gym during weekdays kot...kena give my body a treat la kan... haish...
so!
main point untuk post kali ini ialah...
you are the one who's in charge of your own life. Yes God has planned it all but He gives you choices and you still have to decide. Your decisions are crucial...cuz those are the things that will shape you to be a human! and it shapes your future...in this world and even in the world here-after.
If you believe God has planned a straight path for you in this world that, somehow, no matter how hard and how much you decide upon every choices in life you still end up following God's plan... i guess that's not correct.
i do believe each and every second in our life...there are a lot of branches of choices...each second in life you'll have to decide what to do... either to breathe fast or breathe slow, either to blink your eyes NOW or wait a few more seconds to blink...either to go and eat something or continue reading this crappy blog post...see? that much of decisions in life...always there..can't deny can't run away from it... and these are all choices that God gives us... He wants us to be a thinker! what benefits will u get out of every decisions you will, you have made.
okay, my MAIN MAIN MAAIIINNN POINT issss to say thaaaat....
choose the best decisions that you know will bring benefits to you...
previously, i chose to stay at home rather than going out to experience some 'healthy' socialising session with friends...
and it didn't work... i chose to stay at home because i was lazy to go out...and i ended up being too depressed because i felt so lonely and had no company in life... (that's a bit of an exaggeration of how i felt..but that's partly true)
tapi this week i chose to go out and berukhhhwaaahh dengan kawan2 and i feel great! and yes! i'm happy! so when you're happy, you can study well, do things well and most importantly you'll do things secara IKHLAS when you're happy :)
so!!! choose choose and keep on choosing! decide decide and keep on deciding! every decisions matters! every decisions counts!!!!!!!
whatever i'm talking about~
xxx Im xxx
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