He Left...
My 2nd oneshot.. okay, make it twoshots, that i will post in one of this favourite forum of mine.. hihi~ ^__^..
please read and LEAVE COMMENTS yeah??
.... i included Korean characters in here, but you can always imagine yourselves as the characters in this story~ i think it's very sad (whoops, spoil~ haha) ..
enuf chit chatting~ READ!!
By the way, here's what something that you might wanna know b4 you read:
annyoung= a korean word for Hello Or Goodbye (in this story, we use the 'goodbye' meaning..T_T)
7 years old: “Don’t cry, I’ll be back”
He coaxed me when I cried. Then, he left…
10 years old: “You wait here, I’ll be back”
He said to me while we were having lots of fun at the amusement park. Not long after that, he did not come back. He lied. He left…
Ahn An Young.
A boy whom had a weird behaviour and he also happened to be my best friend. The only friend I ever had. He was the first one whom had talked to me when I first came to my kindergarten long ago.
Other kids told I to keep away from him because he was not ‘normal’ but I was stubborn and chose to be his friend no matter what people would say, and so, they all avoid from being my friends just because I was closed to Ahn An Young.
An Young was not a handsome boy, nor a prince charming to every girl’s life. He was just a normal boy with small eyes and no eyelids but still, he remained a face which I think was quite cute for an average guy. His hair is brownish-dark in colour and when we were younger, his hair was almost bold but when he grew up, it changed. He would let his hair to fall on his forehead and remained it that way as he did not know how to style it up.
Sometimes, I helped him to style his hair, making him look even cuter. At least, I think so to.
Because of me being very very close to him, people even mistaken the fact that we were just friends...just friends…
Ahn An Young.
He resembled his name A LOT!
An young, annyoung…
Goodbye…
I did not even realize it at first but as the time passed by I managed to see it.
The thing is he would always, ALWAYS leave me behind in some situations. I did not even know why.
13 years old: “I’ll wait you in front of the school gate, yeah?”
But I did not saw him waiting.
16 years old: “Happy sweet sixteen… let’s celebrate tonight”
No. Again, I waited for him. He lied.
I always thought that if this kind of behaviour of him was what annoyed by other people. I always thought if he will change one day. Sometimes I will get fed up with this kind of stuff that he did to me. But as soon as I realized he was the only friend I have and the only friend I can rely on, I would cool down and again, thought that I would give him another chance…
18 years old: The story starts here…….
“ Hee Jin ah!!” An Young cried. He ran as fast as he could to approach me whom was walking my way back home from college. I turned around and saw his face. His cute innocent face.
I smiled and stopped from walking.
“Guess what happened to me today?” he asked, breathlessly.
“Chill An Young” I said, still smiling. “Well..hurm…what happened to you, you ask? Well..let me see… you were being bullied again?” I teased.
“Ya Hee Jin ah… I’m serious.”
“Sorry but I have no idea An Young…really… do tell me”
An Young moved closer to me as we began to walk slowly.
“I managed to talk to a girl…new girl…”An Young explained.
Gee. That was great for him. I gave him a slight smile.
“And I think she likes me” An Young continued.
My smiled turned into a grin feeling happy for him.
“And we are going to the college’s annual dance together.”
My grin turned into a frown.
“What? But An Young…” I started to whine but he interrupted before I could finish.
“I know… I know we always go to my college’s annual dance together but, I guess now… well…don’t you think it’s time for a change?”
There was a long moment of silence.
Usually, I never felt this sad before because I always stick to our friendship’s motto: “Friends Forever” …Just friends…
Does that mean this also has to change?
“I… I have to go now An Young.” I stammered, not knowing what else to say.
“Fine, I guess I’ll be seeing you tonight?” He said.
“Tonight? What do you mean?”
“Well… it’s a surprise… wait for me in front of the new French restaurant downtown.” He demanded. He gave me a slight punch on my arms.
“Oh yeah, and wear something…nice.”
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Can I trust him?
Whenever he says for me to ‘wait’ for him… he would never show up.
That night, I was fully groomed. From wearing glittery hairclips to the most elegant shoes, all was completed.
I anxiously waited for him in front of the French restaurant he asked me to do so. Not long after that, I saw he came with a car and he was wearing a black tuxedo with a bow on his neck. His hair was neatly combed.
One word: Wow.
But my heart sank as soon as I saw a girl coming out from the car and he escorted the girl. He smiled and waved to me as soon as he noticed me standing, waiting for him.
“Hee Jin.” He began, His voice was rather dreamy but I could not figure out why he became like that. “You came.”
I can only beam towards his saying.
“Anyway, this is Sa Ra” An Young introduced me to the girl beside him. We both shook hands but I did not feel like I am going to like this girl. Well, is this what a jealousy called?
“This food is awesome.” Sa Ra said that night after taking the last bite on her food.
All I could do was to force a smile. I did not enjoy any minute or any second of that night. For once, I thought An Young would wanted to invite me ALONE to this dinner. You know, as in, just… the two of us. But then again, what does this Sa Ra girl was doing here? She did not belong here. This dinner was meant for the only two of us…only An Young and Me!
I was being mean. I know. But I was furious inside. Trying hard to handle all these chaos that was happening right in front of my very own face!
An Young kind of saw that I was not enjoying it but he acted all calm and cool and pretended like he knew nothing.
“An Young ah, thanks for inviting me to this great dinner and introduce me to your best friend…” Sa Ra thanked him, being all ‘mushy mushy’ like trying to flirt on him.
Yeah Right.
Sa Ra sat beside An Young while I sat in front An Young. Once a while, he would steal a glance on me but will look away as soon as I turned to look at him.
What was wrong with this guy, anyway?
I did not talk much. I deliberately let them having fun for tonight because I know that I will have so much fun with An Young later. I can assure that.
But I was wrong.
An Young suddenly cleared his throat.
“Um… Hee Jin ah” An Young started looking quite gloomy. “There is something I have to tell you.”
There was a lump in my throat. An Young never looked so serious before. I stared at Sa Ra, wanting to know if she might know anything involving the thing that An Young wanted to tell. But Sa Ra kept lowering her head while chewing her food slowly.
To my surprise, An Young suddenly hold Sa Ra’s hand and Sa Ra was obviously looking shocked by An Young’s gesture.
My heart beat faster when I saw what he did and I can feel hot tears were about to flow out from my eyes. Why do I have to feel all this? I really wanted An Young to be just a friend. Best Friend. But what was all the jealousy, anxiousness, heart thumping loudly was all about?
“A... A… An Young ah~” Sa Ra stammered. “What…”
“I like Sa Ra”. An Young said, interrupting Sa Ra. “I… I love her.”
Crash. Heavy Rain. Lightning. Thunder strikes; were the things that I can feel at the very moment An Young said that. That was it. I know that I have been keeping a feeling towards An Young before this but it was my entire mistake that I did not have discovered it on the first place.-and now, Sa Ra took the feeling away from me.
“An Young ah” Sa Ra interrupted.
“I want to follow her to the states by the end of this year” An Young cut Sa Ra’s from talking further.
“An Young ah” Once again Sa Ra interrupted.
“And I want to live with Sa Ra, there; we want to build a happy family. We already planned our future.”
“An Young ah”
“I AM… TRULY… MADLY…IN LOVE… WITH … SA RA”
“An Young!!” Sa Ra intimidated.
-and I ran out from the restaurant, crying…
I was dumfounded.
I cried that night and avoid from answering any phone calls that I received. Why An Young would do this to me? That was so not him at all. He never let me heart broken before.
Wait.
He did.
In fact, he ALWAYS made me felt heart broken. Leaving me behind on almost any events that I think was really special. Fine. If that was what he intended to do since like, ever!! I guess, I guess…. I guess I really should have followed what the other kids said; to avoid An Young, long time ago and find a new friend to start a whole new beginning.
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The next day, I was walking my way home when I saw someone was standing at the corner of the road to my house.
An Young will always waited for me or else, if he was late, he would chased after me and we will walk together until we reach a junction where we have to split to go to our own houses.
But this time, instead of An Young whom was waiting, it was Sa Ra.
Great.
What was she doing there?
I tried to act professional by walking passed her. I mean, I did feel quite embarrassed on what happened to me last night. Clearly, running away from your dinner is soooo childish.
Sa Ra stopped me right after she saw me walking in front of her.
“Hee Jin ah~” She said happily when she saw me.
I ignored her and continued walking.
“Hee Jin wait” She slow jogged trying to catch up with me as I quickened my steps.
“Ya, Hee Jin... about last night…”
I did not want to hear anything correlated with last night’s incident so I said;
“Look Sa Ra, I don’t care if you want to live with that An Young guy or you want to marry him or having kids with him or whatever you want to do with him okay? Just leave me alone will ya?!”
“But Hee Jin…”
“Please Sa Ra. Ever since you came to my life, all you did was trying to ruin it, so please… leave me alone… please.”
“Hee Jin…”
“Please…” I begged. My voice was trembling by that time. Another flow of tears could be seen going down my cheeks. I stopped from walking and covered my face with my hands.
Silence filled the atmosphere around us.
A few seconds later, Sa Ra broke the silence.
“Hee Jin…” Sa Ra said slowly. “I just want to let you know… that… that I am very sorry.”
“And… An Young asked me to tell you that…that he will always cherish the friendships between you two. He also hopes that, if he does not return back… he really hopes that you will understand.” Sa Ra continued.
I broke down into serious tears when I heard An Young’s name. Why did it sound so much like he will not going to be back… ever?
“And… this message is sincerely from me: Goodbye Hee Jin. Nice meeting you. Really… I do…”
With that, Sa Ra turned around and left me standing alone struggling with the havoc within me.
This time, they left…
*How could An Young do this to me? Leaving me just like that without even saying a simple ‘goodbye’?
Does this mean that this would be the end of our friendship?
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23 years old: A new beginning…
Yeah.
It has been 5 years now since An Young left.
I know he will leave me someday.
Like what happened, he did not come back.
I missed him.
I do.
But I stayed strong.
I started a new life. I found new friends. With a bit of leftovers of anger and disappointment, I kind of agreed with my other friends whom once stated that An Young was a troubled-guy and weird. However, 98% of my instinct says that An Young was the most perfect guy for me.
I have a boyfriend now. New and official. Han Dae In was his name. He was cute and totally a gentleman. I like him. That was all. Like him. He helped me to forget about my pass and nowadays, I really do feel thankful that I finally managed to find a suitable guy for me. A guy that will not going to leave me without any reason.
But lately, I found that the phrase; first love is hard to forget, is true…
Today was the day for me to throw my 23rd birthday party. I have so many friends to invite now and life really does feel great when you have companies. But missing one was a terrible feeling.
Dae In had offered to lend a hand on baking my birthday cake together in my house. While waiting for him to arrive, I went to the nearest grocery shop to buy some ingredients we needed to bake a cake. A huge cake that is and I guess it should be a fun time between us.
It was a very perfect day. Not so hot yet not so cold. The wind would blow once a while which will completed the needs of a perfect day.
After I bought some stuff, I walked back home. The shop was near my house so it was a no problem for me to just walk to get there.
I happily stepped forward thinking that each steps I made will bring me nearer to my house and to meet with Dae In. Dae In should be arriving by now.
Anyway, as I walked on the empty road, I could hear other footsteps behind me. A strange feeling suddenly filled my head and chills went up my spine. I stopped and turned around and scanned the whole surroundings but I could see no one and nothing-not even a cat or dog which were following me.
‘That’s weird…’ I thought.
I valiantly continued walking and tried my best to ignore the footsteps sound that I heard once again when I walked.
Tup tup tup… My footsteps sounded.
Tup tup tup… The other footsteps sounded.
Again, I turned around and saw no one.
I quickened my steps and slow jogged to my house. I stopped in front of the gate of my house and turned around again just to make sure that no one, no body were stalking me.
But as I turned back in front;
“BOO!”
“aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!” I shouted.
I heard a laugh. Kind of like an evil laugh but funny enough to make me smile sheepishly
“Dae In ah!! What a pabo guy you are...” I said giving Dae In a punch on his right arm
“Sorry..sorry…” Dae In said still chuckling. “But you sounded so funny screaming like that.”
I looked at him as if I was shocked of hearing what he just said.
“And cute…” he continued smiling and softened his voice.
This what makes I like Dae In so much because he will always finds something that will cheer me up when at the same time, he kind of teased on me. Dae In always knows the way to handle a relationship. He is a matured guy yet very fun to be with. I don’t know if my feeling towards him would somehow change from ‘like’ to ‘love’… who knows…
“Don’t do that again” I demanded.
“Sorry…Sorry, but I have been waiting for you here, for like, forever! Where have you been for so long? I was dead worried you know.” Dae In said while helped me on carrying the groceries I held in my arms.
I looked at him, feeling quite surprised by his words.
“You mean…you’re not the one whom was…” I said pointing my finger around.
Dae In stared at me blankly.
I sighed. Seeing Dae In’s blank stare, I can assure that he was not the one whom had been following me just now. Then, who could that be?
“Nothing..,” I told Dae In and smiled to make him less worried on me. So, we both walked into my house and were very excited to start the baking session. But before I stepped inside, I took a glance once more behind me to confirm that I was just probably imagining things. Never mind, if anything happen, I have Dae In to protect me. I can promise myself on that.
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Party time.
I have so many friends who came and enjoy themselves at my birthday party. It was so much fun! We laugh at our own stupid jokes, we eat lots of snacks, and we play games, balloons and many more!
Dae In was with me all night long and although my friends were having so much fun, I could not feel it~ when they laugh…I can only...smile… And I don’t know why I became like that for the night of MY birthday.
By the time it was over, Dae In was the last person to go home.
“Hee Jin~” he called my name. “Happy birthday” He hold my hands and let it go as he was about to enter his car.
He waved to me and I waved back, smiling and watched his car disappear as he makes a turn at the corner by the end of the street of my house.
Yet, something that is more surprising is about to happen…
I did not notice at first when I went inside my house to chill myself up. But as soon as I walked pass my living room; I could see a figure was leaning his body against a wall of the room.
I stopped and I went panicked.
I was not seeing a ghost was I?
Or could that be a… thief? Or something else?
I made my way slowly to enter the living room, with an umbrella in my right hand… just for my safety.
But before I could spring into action, a hand suddenly gripped me and pulled me close to the body of that ‘figure’, into a hug.
I struggled. Shouting and screaming asking for help. Unfortunately, the ‘figure’ whom was holding me close did not want to let me go. I could not do anything as I was tightly being pulled towards his body.
“I miss you…” The figure finally spoke into my ears.
From frowning and nearly cried, my eyes widened as I heard the voice.
The same voice I always heard before this.
The voice that I was willing to hear once again.
Talk… I want to hear that voice again…
“I’m sorry…” the voice did as what my inner thoughts have said.
Again, please…
“I’m so sorry…”
I became weak and nearly fainted. I was dreaming was I? If this was just a dream, I want to be in this dream forever. Just please, don’t let me wake up…~
Finally the person let me go and for the first time since he left me…
I could see his face once again…
He did not change much, only he was thinner than before…
His hair? - still the same. I love to see him in a hair like that.
I let a flow of tears to go down my cheeks. (There goes my mascara ^__^)
Even though I was crying, I could not turn away from looking at the face that I wanted to see for quite a long time.
He gave me a weak smile but I was satisfied enough to see his smile.
“Happy birthday” he said weakly, dimly, slowly...
An Young’s Story…
I like you Hee Jin.
No.
I love you…
And I know you love me too. Because I can see it obviously on your face that you always acted like you were being happy for me when I managed to talk to a girl that I like when I was not.
Really, I don’t love Sa Ra. The only thing that made me to admit that I Love her was actually…
Actually...
It was because…
Her life was not long. She knew that she will soon have to go to a place and can never be back.
This should also explain of why I kept leaving you behind when I really did not mean to do that…
I am so sorry Hee Jin…
But…
I was not normal. What the other kids told you before was right. I was not normal.
I was sick. When all of the other kids can go run around and play with their friends, get active; I can only sit and watch them having all the fun they can get.
I have heart problem. I was born with it. And the only chance for me to be ‘normal’ was to get someone to donor a heart for me…
When we met or when we were on what so-called ‘dates’ before, I always left but not because I really wanted to leave, it was all because of my health problem. Again, please accept my apologies, Hee Jin…
And what about Sa Ra you ask? Well, like I said, her life was short,
In fact, she knew that I love you…
She had chosen to donor her heart to me. I was really, very thankful for that… she gives me my 2nd chance to live~ thanks to God for letting me to live once again, by destined me to meet with Sa Ra…
Up until now, I can survive. But I don’t know if this healthy life of mine can last long.
And now, I am really thankful to see the one I love in front of me, with someone whom can take care after her, protect her and surrounded by so many charming friends.
At last, she managed to get the life like what I always wanted…
Hee Jin ah~ you are so lucky. And I am happy for you. Really, I do…
Hee Jin’s Story…
An Young…
Similar with your name.
I hate it to see you’re being neglected by the others.
I want you to have the life of ‘normal’ people, ‘cuz I know…No! I BELIEVE that you are absolutely normal…
‘Please An Young… don’t leave me…’
The phrase that I always told myself while I was crying.
Lately, you’ve changed, instead of being with me; you were trying to AVOID me…
Why?
Did I do something wrong to you? Offended you?
If so, please, accept my apology An Young…
I really can’t stand it when you were mad at me…
I just… can’t stop falling in love with you…
And I don’t know since when I started to have that kind of feeling towards you…
Even though time had passed…
And we managed to lead our own way of lives,
I only wanted to ask you for just one very small tiny favour:
‘An Young ah~ Don’t leave me…’
Original fiction by: Im 2007
Properties of : http://imim251191.blogspot.com/
date: 19/11/2007
please read and LEAVE COMMENTS yeah??
.... i included Korean characters in here, but you can always imagine yourselves as the characters in this story~ i think it's very sad (whoops, spoil~ haha) ..
enuf chit chatting~ READ!!
By the way, here's what something that you might wanna know b4 you read:
annyoung= a korean word for Hello Or Goodbye (in this story, we use the 'goodbye' meaning..T_T)
7 years old: “Don’t cry, I’ll be back”
He coaxed me when I cried. Then, he left…
10 years old: “You wait here, I’ll be back”
He said to me while we were having lots of fun at the amusement park. Not long after that, he did not come back. He lied. He left…
Ahn An Young.
A boy whom had a weird behaviour and he also happened to be my best friend. The only friend I ever had. He was the first one whom had talked to me when I first came to my kindergarten long ago.
Other kids told I to keep away from him because he was not ‘normal’ but I was stubborn and chose to be his friend no matter what people would say, and so, they all avoid from being my friends just because I was closed to Ahn An Young.
An Young was not a handsome boy, nor a prince charming to every girl’s life. He was just a normal boy with small eyes and no eyelids but still, he remained a face which I think was quite cute for an average guy. His hair is brownish-dark in colour and when we were younger, his hair was almost bold but when he grew up, it changed. He would let his hair to fall on his forehead and remained it that way as he did not know how to style it up.
Sometimes, I helped him to style his hair, making him look even cuter. At least, I think so to.
Because of me being very very close to him, people even mistaken the fact that we were just friends...just friends…
Ahn An Young.
He resembled his name A LOT!
An young, annyoung…
Goodbye…
I did not even realize it at first but as the time passed by I managed to see it.
The thing is he would always, ALWAYS leave me behind in some situations. I did not even know why.
13 years old: “I’ll wait you in front of the school gate, yeah?”
But I did not saw him waiting.
16 years old: “Happy sweet sixteen… let’s celebrate tonight”
No. Again, I waited for him. He lied.
I always thought that if this kind of behaviour of him was what annoyed by other people. I always thought if he will change one day. Sometimes I will get fed up with this kind of stuff that he did to me. But as soon as I realized he was the only friend I have and the only friend I can rely on, I would cool down and again, thought that I would give him another chance…
18 years old: The story starts here…….
“ Hee Jin ah!!” An Young cried. He ran as fast as he could to approach me whom was walking my way back home from college. I turned around and saw his face. His cute innocent face.
I smiled and stopped from walking.
“Guess what happened to me today?” he asked, breathlessly.
“Chill An Young” I said, still smiling. “Well..hurm…what happened to you, you ask? Well..let me see… you were being bullied again?” I teased.
“Ya Hee Jin ah… I’m serious.”
“Sorry but I have no idea An Young…really… do tell me”
An Young moved closer to me as we began to walk slowly.
“I managed to talk to a girl…new girl…”An Young explained.
Gee. That was great for him. I gave him a slight smile.
“And I think she likes me” An Young continued.
My smiled turned into a grin feeling happy for him.
“And we are going to the college’s annual dance together.”
My grin turned into a frown.
“What? But An Young…” I started to whine but he interrupted before I could finish.
“I know… I know we always go to my college’s annual dance together but, I guess now… well…don’t you think it’s time for a change?”
There was a long moment of silence.
Usually, I never felt this sad before because I always stick to our friendship’s motto: “Friends Forever” …Just friends…
Does that mean this also has to change?
“I… I have to go now An Young.” I stammered, not knowing what else to say.
“Fine, I guess I’ll be seeing you tonight?” He said.
“Tonight? What do you mean?”
“Well… it’s a surprise… wait for me in front of the new French restaurant downtown.” He demanded. He gave me a slight punch on my arms.
“Oh yeah, and wear something…nice.”
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Can I trust him?
Whenever he says for me to ‘wait’ for him… he would never show up.
That night, I was fully groomed. From wearing glittery hairclips to the most elegant shoes, all was completed.
I anxiously waited for him in front of the French restaurant he asked me to do so. Not long after that, I saw he came with a car and he was wearing a black tuxedo with a bow on his neck. His hair was neatly combed.
One word: Wow.
But my heart sank as soon as I saw a girl coming out from the car and he escorted the girl. He smiled and waved to me as soon as he noticed me standing, waiting for him.
“Hee Jin.” He began, His voice was rather dreamy but I could not figure out why he became like that. “You came.”
I can only beam towards his saying.
“Anyway, this is Sa Ra” An Young introduced me to the girl beside him. We both shook hands but I did not feel like I am going to like this girl. Well, is this what a jealousy called?
“This food is awesome.” Sa Ra said that night after taking the last bite on her food.
All I could do was to force a smile. I did not enjoy any minute or any second of that night. For once, I thought An Young would wanted to invite me ALONE to this dinner. You know, as in, just… the two of us. But then again, what does this Sa Ra girl was doing here? She did not belong here. This dinner was meant for the only two of us…only An Young and Me!
I was being mean. I know. But I was furious inside. Trying hard to handle all these chaos that was happening right in front of my very own face!
An Young kind of saw that I was not enjoying it but he acted all calm and cool and pretended like he knew nothing.
“An Young ah, thanks for inviting me to this great dinner and introduce me to your best friend…” Sa Ra thanked him, being all ‘mushy mushy’ like trying to flirt on him.
Yeah Right.
Sa Ra sat beside An Young while I sat in front An Young. Once a while, he would steal a glance on me but will look away as soon as I turned to look at him.
What was wrong with this guy, anyway?
I did not talk much. I deliberately let them having fun for tonight because I know that I will have so much fun with An Young later. I can assure that.
But I was wrong.
An Young suddenly cleared his throat.
“Um… Hee Jin ah” An Young started looking quite gloomy. “There is something I have to tell you.”
There was a lump in my throat. An Young never looked so serious before. I stared at Sa Ra, wanting to know if she might know anything involving the thing that An Young wanted to tell. But Sa Ra kept lowering her head while chewing her food slowly.
To my surprise, An Young suddenly hold Sa Ra’s hand and Sa Ra was obviously looking shocked by An Young’s gesture.
My heart beat faster when I saw what he did and I can feel hot tears were about to flow out from my eyes. Why do I have to feel all this? I really wanted An Young to be just a friend. Best Friend. But what was all the jealousy, anxiousness, heart thumping loudly was all about?
“A... A… An Young ah~” Sa Ra stammered. “What…”
“I like Sa Ra”. An Young said, interrupting Sa Ra. “I… I love her.”
Crash. Heavy Rain. Lightning. Thunder strikes; were the things that I can feel at the very moment An Young said that. That was it. I know that I have been keeping a feeling towards An Young before this but it was my entire mistake that I did not have discovered it on the first place.-and now, Sa Ra took the feeling away from me.
“An Young ah” Sa Ra interrupted.
“I want to follow her to the states by the end of this year” An Young cut Sa Ra’s from talking further.
“An Young ah” Once again Sa Ra interrupted.
“And I want to live with Sa Ra, there; we want to build a happy family. We already planned our future.”
“An Young ah”
“I AM… TRULY… MADLY…IN LOVE… WITH … SA RA”
“An Young!!” Sa Ra intimidated.
-and I ran out from the restaurant, crying…
I was dumfounded.
I cried that night and avoid from answering any phone calls that I received. Why An Young would do this to me? That was so not him at all. He never let me heart broken before.
Wait.
He did.
In fact, he ALWAYS made me felt heart broken. Leaving me behind on almost any events that I think was really special. Fine. If that was what he intended to do since like, ever!! I guess, I guess…. I guess I really should have followed what the other kids said; to avoid An Young, long time ago and find a new friend to start a whole new beginning.
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The next day, I was walking my way home when I saw someone was standing at the corner of the road to my house.
An Young will always waited for me or else, if he was late, he would chased after me and we will walk together until we reach a junction where we have to split to go to our own houses.
But this time, instead of An Young whom was waiting, it was Sa Ra.
Great.
What was she doing there?
I tried to act professional by walking passed her. I mean, I did feel quite embarrassed on what happened to me last night. Clearly, running away from your dinner is soooo childish.
Sa Ra stopped me right after she saw me walking in front of her.
“Hee Jin ah~” She said happily when she saw me.
I ignored her and continued walking.
“Hee Jin wait” She slow jogged trying to catch up with me as I quickened my steps.
“Ya, Hee Jin... about last night…”
I did not want to hear anything correlated with last night’s incident so I said;
“Look Sa Ra, I don’t care if you want to live with that An Young guy or you want to marry him or having kids with him or whatever you want to do with him okay? Just leave me alone will ya?!”
“But Hee Jin…”
“Please Sa Ra. Ever since you came to my life, all you did was trying to ruin it, so please… leave me alone… please.”
“Hee Jin…”
“Please…” I begged. My voice was trembling by that time. Another flow of tears could be seen going down my cheeks. I stopped from walking and covered my face with my hands.
Silence filled the atmosphere around us.
A few seconds later, Sa Ra broke the silence.
“Hee Jin…” Sa Ra said slowly. “I just want to let you know… that… that I am very sorry.”
“And… An Young asked me to tell you that…that he will always cherish the friendships between you two. He also hopes that, if he does not return back… he really hopes that you will understand.” Sa Ra continued.
I broke down into serious tears when I heard An Young’s name. Why did it sound so much like he will not going to be back… ever?
“And… this message is sincerely from me: Goodbye Hee Jin. Nice meeting you. Really… I do…”
With that, Sa Ra turned around and left me standing alone struggling with the havoc within me.
This time, they left…
*How could An Young do this to me? Leaving me just like that without even saying a simple ‘goodbye’?
Does this mean that this would be the end of our friendship?
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23 years old: A new beginning…
Yeah.
It has been 5 years now since An Young left.
I know he will leave me someday.
Like what happened, he did not come back.
I missed him.
I do.
But I stayed strong.
I started a new life. I found new friends. With a bit of leftovers of anger and disappointment, I kind of agreed with my other friends whom once stated that An Young was a troubled-guy and weird. However, 98% of my instinct says that An Young was the most perfect guy for me.
I have a boyfriend now. New and official. Han Dae In was his name. He was cute and totally a gentleman. I like him. That was all. Like him. He helped me to forget about my pass and nowadays, I really do feel thankful that I finally managed to find a suitable guy for me. A guy that will not going to leave me without any reason.
But lately, I found that the phrase; first love is hard to forget, is true…
Today was the day for me to throw my 23rd birthday party. I have so many friends to invite now and life really does feel great when you have companies. But missing one was a terrible feeling.
Dae In had offered to lend a hand on baking my birthday cake together in my house. While waiting for him to arrive, I went to the nearest grocery shop to buy some ingredients we needed to bake a cake. A huge cake that is and I guess it should be a fun time between us.
It was a very perfect day. Not so hot yet not so cold. The wind would blow once a while which will completed the needs of a perfect day.
After I bought some stuff, I walked back home. The shop was near my house so it was a no problem for me to just walk to get there.
I happily stepped forward thinking that each steps I made will bring me nearer to my house and to meet with Dae In. Dae In should be arriving by now.
Anyway, as I walked on the empty road, I could hear other footsteps behind me. A strange feeling suddenly filled my head and chills went up my spine. I stopped and turned around and scanned the whole surroundings but I could see no one and nothing-not even a cat or dog which were following me.
‘That’s weird…’ I thought.
I valiantly continued walking and tried my best to ignore the footsteps sound that I heard once again when I walked.
Tup tup tup… My footsteps sounded.
Tup tup tup… The other footsteps sounded.
Again, I turned around and saw no one.
I quickened my steps and slow jogged to my house. I stopped in front of the gate of my house and turned around again just to make sure that no one, no body were stalking me.
But as I turned back in front;
“BOO!”
“aaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!” I shouted.
I heard a laugh. Kind of like an evil laugh but funny enough to make me smile sheepishly
“Dae In ah!! What a pabo guy you are...” I said giving Dae In a punch on his right arm
“Sorry..sorry…” Dae In said still chuckling. “But you sounded so funny screaming like that.”
I looked at him as if I was shocked of hearing what he just said.
“And cute…” he continued smiling and softened his voice.
This what makes I like Dae In so much because he will always finds something that will cheer me up when at the same time, he kind of teased on me. Dae In always knows the way to handle a relationship. He is a matured guy yet very fun to be with. I don’t know if my feeling towards him would somehow change from ‘like’ to ‘love’… who knows…
“Don’t do that again” I demanded.
“Sorry…Sorry, but I have been waiting for you here, for like, forever! Where have you been for so long? I was dead worried you know.” Dae In said while helped me on carrying the groceries I held in my arms.
I looked at him, feeling quite surprised by his words.
“You mean…you’re not the one whom was…” I said pointing my finger around.
Dae In stared at me blankly.
I sighed. Seeing Dae In’s blank stare, I can assure that he was not the one whom had been following me just now. Then, who could that be?
“Nothing..,” I told Dae In and smiled to make him less worried on me. So, we both walked into my house and were very excited to start the baking session. But before I stepped inside, I took a glance once more behind me to confirm that I was just probably imagining things. Never mind, if anything happen, I have Dae In to protect me. I can promise myself on that.
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Party time.
I have so many friends who came and enjoy themselves at my birthday party. It was so much fun! We laugh at our own stupid jokes, we eat lots of snacks, and we play games, balloons and many more!
Dae In was with me all night long and although my friends were having so much fun, I could not feel it~ when they laugh…I can only...smile… And I don’t know why I became like that for the night of MY birthday.
By the time it was over, Dae In was the last person to go home.
“Hee Jin~” he called my name. “Happy birthday” He hold my hands and let it go as he was about to enter his car.
He waved to me and I waved back, smiling and watched his car disappear as he makes a turn at the corner by the end of the street of my house.
Yet, something that is more surprising is about to happen…
I did not notice at first when I went inside my house to chill myself up. But as soon as I walked pass my living room; I could see a figure was leaning his body against a wall of the room.
I stopped and I went panicked.
I was not seeing a ghost was I?
Or could that be a… thief? Or something else?
I made my way slowly to enter the living room, with an umbrella in my right hand… just for my safety.
But before I could spring into action, a hand suddenly gripped me and pulled me close to the body of that ‘figure’, into a hug.
I struggled. Shouting and screaming asking for help. Unfortunately, the ‘figure’ whom was holding me close did not want to let me go. I could not do anything as I was tightly being pulled towards his body.
“I miss you…” The figure finally spoke into my ears.
From frowning and nearly cried, my eyes widened as I heard the voice.
The same voice I always heard before this.
The voice that I was willing to hear once again.
Talk… I want to hear that voice again…
“I’m sorry…” the voice did as what my inner thoughts have said.
Again, please…
“I’m so sorry…”
I became weak and nearly fainted. I was dreaming was I? If this was just a dream, I want to be in this dream forever. Just please, don’t let me wake up…~
Finally the person let me go and for the first time since he left me…
I could see his face once again…
He did not change much, only he was thinner than before…
His hair? - still the same. I love to see him in a hair like that.
I let a flow of tears to go down my cheeks. (There goes my mascara ^__^)
Even though I was crying, I could not turn away from looking at the face that I wanted to see for quite a long time.
He gave me a weak smile but I was satisfied enough to see his smile.
“Happy birthday” he said weakly, dimly, slowly...
An Young’s Story…
I like you Hee Jin.
No.
I love you…
And I know you love me too. Because I can see it obviously on your face that you always acted like you were being happy for me when I managed to talk to a girl that I like when I was not.
Really, I don’t love Sa Ra. The only thing that made me to admit that I Love her was actually…
Actually...
It was because…
Her life was not long. She knew that she will soon have to go to a place and can never be back.
This should also explain of why I kept leaving you behind when I really did not mean to do that…
I am so sorry Hee Jin…
But…
I was not normal. What the other kids told you before was right. I was not normal.
I was sick. When all of the other kids can go run around and play with their friends, get active; I can only sit and watch them having all the fun they can get.
I have heart problem. I was born with it. And the only chance for me to be ‘normal’ was to get someone to donor a heart for me…
When we met or when we were on what so-called ‘dates’ before, I always left but not because I really wanted to leave, it was all because of my health problem. Again, please accept my apologies, Hee Jin…
And what about Sa Ra you ask? Well, like I said, her life was short,
In fact, she knew that I love you…
She had chosen to donor her heart to me. I was really, very thankful for that… she gives me my 2nd chance to live~ thanks to God for letting me to live once again, by destined me to meet with Sa Ra…
Up until now, I can survive. But I don’t know if this healthy life of mine can last long.
And now, I am really thankful to see the one I love in front of me, with someone whom can take care after her, protect her and surrounded by so many charming friends.
At last, she managed to get the life like what I always wanted…
Hee Jin ah~ you are so lucky. And I am happy for you. Really, I do…
Hee Jin’s Story…
An Young…
Similar with your name.
I hate it to see you’re being neglected by the others.
I want you to have the life of ‘normal’ people, ‘cuz I know…No! I BELIEVE that you are absolutely normal…
‘Please An Young… don’t leave me…’
The phrase that I always told myself while I was crying.
Lately, you’ve changed, instead of being with me; you were trying to AVOID me…
Why?
Did I do something wrong to you? Offended you?
If so, please, accept my apology An Young…
I really can’t stand it when you were mad at me…
I just… can’t stop falling in love with you…
And I don’t know since when I started to have that kind of feeling towards you…
Even though time had passed…
And we managed to lead our own way of lives,
I only wanted to ask you for just one very small tiny favour:
‘An Young ah~ Don’t leave me…’
Original fiction by: Im 2007
Properties of : http://imim251191.blogspot.com/
date: 19/11/2007
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